When I was pregnant I had a lot of ideas about the kind of parent I wanted to be. I carefully researched all things pregnancy and birth related and confidently made certain decisions that went against the norm, such as declining 2 out of 3 routine ultrasounds and not doing a test for gestational diabetes. I felt in control of my pregnancy, and healthy and strong. Then labour and birth came along, and I was reminded that I am not, as Gurmukh says, "the great Doer of all things." I learned that I was not in total control and I surrendered.
As we stumbled along those early weeks of parenting, we were given so much advice, so much of it conflicting. A pattern that repeats itself to this day. The only difference is that now, I have the confidence to say, "I know my baby better than anyone else in the world, and I trust myself to make decisions for her wellbeing."
I think that this is one of the hardest things about becoming a parent, because it sometimes means going against the grain or disagreeing with people you respect. It's taken me some time to get to this point, and I know I still have a way to go. But when I see these photos of my smiling baby girl, wrapped in linen against my chest, I know that she is healthy, happy and safe. What more could I hope for?
I'm thrilled to be included in a group of 17 other mums and dads, documenting the art of babywearing for the Sakura Bloom Sling Diaries, vol iv.
I wear Clementine in the simple sling in wheat.
A huge thank you to Tim, for being awesome and for taking these photos. Clementine just loved being shot by him and was totally hamming it up!